Non-Duality and Awakening, by Other Means– Three

Vignettes

3.25.23

Everything you ever “attain” you will eventually lose.

Your choice of course, if you want to keep playing in these realms of illusion and separation, aka Samsara, clinging to ideas that become merely more ways to stay now “spiritually” separate from “Source,” or whatever term we might use here to point toward what cannot ever be named, and is only known by itself

Which, so amazingly, we also are.

But you really ought to NOT identify these activities of yours as spirituality, and certainly your last words here are not even very good thinking.

It is your very own body-mind lost in the beliefs of separation that does all this abstracting. And it does so because it fears most of all the Real.

Your initial words were actually pretty good, as far as words go, in pointing to what we always and already are. But they are being associated with a very incongruous image, as North American indigenous cultures did and do not speak in such ways. Which altogether just continues all the same now decades old “new-age” foolishness.

Instead of clutching and resisting (two sides of the same coin), and arguing within those narrow constraints, lift your attention up and beyond any and all efforts to become a mere spiritual someone.

You seem unable to grok that you are actually being called, via words like your original ones here, to where such pointings point, so to speak.

Just GO. Jump off your flag pole, over the edge again so to speak, so you can be plunged into what you fear the most. Not knowing.

Actually, let yourself DIE to all beliefs and efforts, for only then will you begin to discover what is left.

Stop trying to be “someone,” and especially stop trying to gather around you a following so that you can prove, most of all to yourself of course, that you are “special.”

A following of people who share your illusions of separation, and therefore will “appreciate” you for helping them reinforce their own, now “spiritual,” identities of separation.

Also, you have zero understanding of Christianity, aka Jesus’s teachings, near as bad as Christian fundamentalists have, yours being merely a slightly different variation on our human collective’s shared illusions of separation.

4.4.23

Three things, concurrently.

One, stop trying to hold it all together. It is like trying to hold yourself down on the earth, a lot of stress, pain and effort to no purpose, other than to perpetuate a hodgepodge of illusory fears and ideologies all woven into and through who you have been taught to believe you are.

Do what is clearly and tangibly next, that is all.

At this point for you it is a process of unlearning. Allow everything you are trying to hold together go, or not, as it will, and begin to realize what is neither coming nor going, always was, is, here, now. What appears to us as change will continue and all that is real will still be.

The ending of beliefs is neither the end of you nor the end of Creation. It is only these seeming appearances of separation, conflict, and ideological weight and “substance,” that are dissolving away. Along with beliefs that any of that is who you are.

All of it was mist and mirage. The real and tangible remain, all the while as grace, peace and freedom increase.

Two, stop the cannabis whenever and as much as you can. Allow yourself to sit and burn in this fire that you are using cannabis to get away from. What you truly are is fireproof. Let the gradual ending of cannabis become an opportunity to discover this essential difference.

Three, pay attention to your thoughts, feelings, and inner and outer activities as a whole thing, like when you are driving a vehicle in fast busy traffic. You are just simply there, steering, acceleration, braking and destination all just happening, built in, no “doing” necessary. Because YOU are paying full attention.

Everything is opportunity. Each person’s whole life is. One auspicious human birth.

4.14.23

We cannot go beyond words with words, no matter how hard we try to annihilate words with merely more words. You will always and only dig yourself deeper, into an ever more complex confusion of words.

Occasionally, to borrow from Ramana, a word can be used like a thorn to dig out another thorn, but only when both thorns are then totally tossed away.

Real Silence is the absence of words. Not just the end, instead an alive absence that realizes words were never real. This Silence that you always and already are. It is rather simple actually. Though not, to minds lost in all these identities of separation based on words, concepts, ideas, and a senseless striving for something or somewhere “else.”

4.15.23

Let go of the figuring, and stay with the movement and the seeing and the feeling, this deeper sensing not of the body that you seem to be discovering. A few conditional boundaries have fallen away for you, at least to some degree. It can seem scary, even difficult, though not necessarily so.

And scary only for as long as your experience is still being perceived through conditioning. Let it happen. Willingness, rather than willfulness.

Simple and honest curiosity is the vehicle, rather than answers, definitions, explanations. And even more especially not other people’s answers, definitions, explanations. Not even these words.

You will be left, through what for a while may seem to be myriad different “events,” as something else, a kind of simple awareness of what you always and already Are, along with an increasing willingness to join ever deeper into this Way. Let’s temporarily call what I am pointing to here, the Way of Curiosity.

4.15.23.2

You are using the term “consciousness” differently here.

With that said, what you are calling the unconscious “has” only its own flurries and fears and sensations. All beliefs in otherwise are merely more projection from the unconscious to convince YOU that it, all that “unconscious” confusion, IS also you.

This could perhaps be metaphor-ed, in a sense, for the purposes of this engagement, by saying the subconscious is the “local ocean,” consciousness the wave, and the “unconscious” all the foam and fury that tries to convince the wave that IT is what the wave is all about.

Another term for the unconscious is ego. As the unconscious comes into consciousness, it is absorbed back into the wave so to speak, and ego diminishes.

The Eastern and to some degree Middle Eastern worlds are filled with libraries full of ancient efforts to figure all this out. With pretty much all of that effort failing miserably. Old books merely gathering dust and mold, slowly dissolving away.

True mystics, the ones who actually leave real tracks, so to speak, leave their tracks as pointings, not answers, techniques, definitions, books, etc.

Feel into it, live into it, surrender into it. Over and over and over. Each journey unique, with neither mine nor anyone else’s journey being yours.

Assuming this calling is real for you, and not just another attempt to gain a greater so-called “spiritual” identity of separation.

4.17.23

Consciousness is gifting humans with Herself, so that She may know, play, and discover Herself as all these ever unfolding and infinite possibilities that are able to arise through this Miracle of Life we are part of, on and as Earth.

Consciousness, Truth, Love, Beauty, Terror, Discord, and so many other terms for what is prior to all words, terms and language, all of it as if different facets of what is an infinitely-faced unfolding, like an infinitely cut, and yet ceaselessly fluid, shifting, ever changing, diamond, aka Creation.

And I suspect that “we” and our beloved planet Earth are not the only places here in the manifest Universe where this Gift of Consciousness is being Realized.

To quote Richard Rohr: “God loves us by becoming us.”

4.18.23

There is nothing wrong with the concept of “Emptiness.” When frustration and anxiety rule people’s lives, as they do for about 8 billion of us now, then emptying our lives of things, beliefs, conditioning, stress, and bad habits is a wonderful message.

So long as there is an effective teaching that achieves this emptiness, rather than just sitting and waiting for emptiness to happen.

“Be aware of being aware” achieves an “emptiness of objects and thoughts” not by opposing them, or exerting effort against them, but by opening us effortlessly to the joy and peace of our true Self, pure Awareness.

So, paradoxically, turning toward fullness (pure Awareness) turns out to be an easy and effective way to achieve emptiness, and along with that perhaps even some lasting peace, happiness, creativity, intelligence, love, and fulfillment.

4.19.23

How long are you going to keep doing this, walking round and round between all your many map tables, hovering over the maps, and studying what are always and still merely more maps, stories, and conceptual imaginings of other people’s actual journeys, and all these many little bread crumbs all such journeys tend to leave behind?

Day after day wandering amidst mere maps, all of them like the tracks left in now dry and hardened mud by geese who flew off a long time ago. Peering from every different angle and direction you can discern, and making up ever more maps and models in all the ways of color and scale and orientation, that your growing talents and skills in these ways keep allowing, with increasingly refined descriptions perfectly aligned in the map margins?

When will you realize that all your words and concepts and stories (maps) are still ONLY maps, imagery, mere descriptions and minimalist sketches, of something that is sooooo much and more, in every infinitely dimensional way, BEYOND anything that even a zillion zillion maps, descriptions and sketches, in however many dimensions you might be able to imagine, make and construct them in, using super computers and AI and square miles of data centers even, will ever be able to contain, describe or portray?

Instead, turn off the lights in your map rooms, open the door, step outside, take a big, big breath, and actually walk up the block and around that very farthest corner you can see, the one all your maps keep telling you is there.

And then keep going.

Because you have decided you are finally ready to actually LIVE this unique journey that is also your own, and give your own singular and completely whole life, your whole very existence, to THIS that is calling to you.

It is only in actually living this journey that you will ever truly begin to discover what you always and already are.

4.20.23

Is this really what you seek for yourself, this precision of always and forever partial ideas of what you and existence actually are together? (with “forever” in this context being merely more “time” than you can imagine)

There is something in astrophysics called an event horizon, defined as a one-way boundary past which events cannot affect an observer. I want to borrow that term from physics and turn it on its “head,” sort of.

Imagine this event horizon as a dimensionless one-way boundary beyond which an “observer” (identity of separation), no matter how “close” he gets to it, cannot ever go, and also cannot ever know, perceive or experience what lies on the boundary’s “other” side.

And then further and somewhat paradoxically, imagine that what “exists” or lies on the “other” side of this dimensionless “boundary” is actually our observer’s very own greater “context,” or Self.

And now add to this another word play. You are standing right on the very edge and this newly defined event horizon, as close as you have ever been able to get. All the while as there is being experienced a “something,” on what seems to be the other “side” of this event horizon, that is powerfully calling to another “something” that you feel within you.

Now let’s say that this “something” is actually calling to an aspect of its very own self within you. A sort of like “depth,” spaciousness or dimensionless dimension that you do not yet directly know is also you. Or even, perhaps because there was a difficult “taste” of this “something” at some prior point in your journey, you may actually fear is you.

All of it still just a sense, feeling, push, pull, movement, stirring, scent, taste, touch, glint. All of the above or none of the above. Calling to you. Fill in whatever words work for you here.

And say you have become increasingly aware that you are standing in a very close sort of a proximity to that boundary or edge, and that you are exploring it in every possible way you can. Distance to it, how it seems to stretch out all around you, different orientations in relationship to it, multiple views, and in every other way you possible can, with every intellectual tool and concept and other people’s maps and descriptions of it that you can possibly find, grasp, understand, or make use of.

All the while as you keep “shortening” or “diminishing” what seems to be your distance to or separation from that edge. Closer and closer you come.

Or so it seems.

Because, no matter how “much,” how many times, or how perfectly you seem to be able to diminish these imaginary “distances” between you and this metaphorical event horizon, the “you” that is attempting all this will remain on what seems to be the “out” side of it.

Caught forever in the belief that “you” are the observer doing all this work and figuring.

Instead, turn back into what is actually feeling, experiencing the call, and willingly die, disappear, be dissolved back into what is being stirred, which is your very own original nature, within you.

Because that whole event horizon itself is an illusion.

4.25.23

No half-way meetups, no black-white dialectics, no compromises, no either/or choices. All framings in such ways are illusions made up by a collection of ever shifting tenuous beliefs additionally believing there is a some “one” (itself made of beliefs) “who” is able to think up this stuff, and therefore is now also able to believe they are “separate” from all these thinkings, aka their own projections.

False imaginings of freedom, spiraling ever deeper and deeper into always ever increasing intellectual and philosophical complexifications.

5.5.23

Always it must be play, for reality needs no words nor anything else to know itself. All seeming “else” IS its play.

For some larger context I’ll again quote Richard Rohr; “God loves us by becoming us.”

And so now a “story” …

Within what is truly the gift of this infinitely variable and ever unfolding, inwardly as well as outwardly, Universe, or we could simply say relative existence, there arose the possibility of “something” noticing it’s “self” as a part of “everything” seeming else.

After a while some aspects of this “something” began to believe that their beliefs were real and actual, rather than merely ephemeral belief. They also began to identify with their own biological forms, sensory experiences and neural patterns, and by taking this identification even further, believe that they were “separate” and independent from everything else.

As these separation identities evolved, they also began to believe their very “survival” as something “separate” depended most of all upon reinforcing, increasing and extending separation.

Control over what they increasingly perceived as everyone and everything “else” became their primary means for doing this.

And so, humans became dominant on planet Earth, with some humans more dominant than others.

Humans also began to believe they must include or subsume as much of “everything else” into their own identities of separation as they possibly could.

This false separation-serving “inclusiveness,” accomplished via increasingly exalted self-images, began accumulating human power (over everything it believed separate) into fewer and fewer hands. Ever increasing consumption and deified greed became, above all else, our human species’ primary means to reinforce what has now become a totally insane human meta belief, in the form of huge separatist ideologies, that it must, above all else, “survive” as something separate from Existence, Creation.

And so, our “modern” human world – patriarchy, capitalism, hierarchy, autocracies and imperialism – all of which is now destroying both itself and most of planet Earth as we know it.

It is only through dissolving away our identification with of all these beliefs in separation that we can finally begin to realize how it is that Awareness itself, which we also are, is also the very same core Essence of Everything, now gifted as a potentially awakening experience to certain particular unique aspects of Everything, otherwise known as humans, here on Earth.

When enough identification with separation has fallen away, we will begin to realize, more and more, that we already ARE everything, as well as the Source, Context and Substance of Everything.

This journey of return, to where we never left, is the One and only “reason” for everything.

“God loves us by becoming us.”

5.5.23.2

Play IS all of Existence.

But it is also important, here in these particular moments of what I’ll call for brevity the illusions of time and history (his story), that our ways of play point more and more toward Reality, and not merely toward more diversions, distractions, avoidances and illusions.

If you do not understand this, then you have not really noticed in your core being what we humans are actually “doing” to ourselves, each other, and the world around us, a world that includes all other living beings and the Earth Herself.

All of which we are, in fact, inseparable from.

There IS paradox. We must begin to actually live paradox, and stop trying to figure it out, and even more especially stop playing manipulative games with it.

As a very wise old man once told me, long ago, THIS is all serious fun.

The sound of one hand clapping.

We humans are being called, more and more now, to start “clapping” together.

Exactly wherever, and whenever, we find ourselves. Over and over and over.

5.5.23.3

You are once again thinking in bits and pieces. “We” (you, I) do not awaken. We are awakened out of. Though actually, we dissolve away, and yet paradoxically we remain, always and already here. Over and over. But even that is not it, because no words can ever say this.

There is only Love. Without “parts.” All the rest is made-up illusions lost in beliefs of separation.

Our individual as well and collective human beliefs in these illusions of separation are now destroying, actually and factually, the whole world as we know it. This collective as well as individual awakening of the human experience of what Existence always and already IS.

Soooo amazing what belief can seem to “do” in the name of “separation,” especially when these beliefs are passed through the “prism” of an awareness that is not yet awakened to itself.

Leave word games behind, and instead live the real and actual dissolution of your own identity of separation.

And at some point, perhaps, the silence itself may begin to speak through you. A silence that you will know as also yourself.

But only after what you believe to be you, and any and all seeming mirrored “others,” are substantially gone, and your very own non-journey of “going” is fully welcomed and embraced.

Or, you can just keep playing games in what is essentially a tiny little walled-in, separate, made-up, “kingdom” of your own.

If that is what you really want.

5.6.23

Just notice the thoughts, sensations, feelings. Don’t attach hierarchy, meaning or labels to them, all of which is merely more thought. And when you do, as you will for a while, also notice that.

There is no effort in this noticing, you are already here (where else could you be?), and aware that you are here. Any effort to do, stop, fix, avoid, or let go is just more stuff to notice.

When this noticing is as natural as breathing, and of the same order (in other words it happens of its own, cannot be stopped, yet you can join or engage with it, and affect its cycles and rhythms), become curious about who or what IS this noticing.

A simple yet active curiosity that develops and evolves of its own, sort of the way we can play with our own breath, still noticing, all the same.

Experience what you are, this that is noticing, and become more and more familiar with it, neither labels nor hierarchy, free even of time and space.

Rather simple. Not easy of course, but still, simple. Not complicated in other words.

It is only our deep conditioning, through form, into identifying with beliefs shaped by thoughts, memories, sensations and feelings, that makes it not easy.

Through this simple sort of noticing, until it is as natural as breathing, we begin to dissolve that “stickiness” to our deep conditions.

And now we can actually begin to really question our beliefs. Simple questions, like, is this helpful?

Ego (identification with beliefs in separation) will of course throw up lots and lots of complications. It has “survived” for a long time by being very complicated, and wants, by its very “nature,” to continue to survive.

Merely more to notice.

Simply.

5.7.23

Sometimes we need to change our outer circumstances, so that we can get a new “angle” or perspective regarding what is presently appearing to be an inner journey. it doesn’t necessarily have to be big change, as long as it is real, not a temporary act, or a masquerade.

A new angle of experience, so to speak, from where you may begin to see through some more of these layers of belief you are describing.

Sorta like changing the angle of a mirror. And do understand that, in these realms, the outer world, as we are experiencing it, is a mirror.

You may begin to notice through a different inward slant, again so to speak, that likable and unlikable, and all other judgements, are made of the same illusions. When you start to see this, you can then begin to question the illusions.

However, many layers to them there will likely be. Become totally willing to take the rest of your life at this.

Illusions fully seen, lighted up by your noticing (attention), by their very nature will eventually dissolve away. Illusion, belief, thought, feeling, emotion, fear, desire, all the same.

And then also remember to discover some comfort and joy in the actual company of this one (that you are) who is seeing all this. Without any need of name or label.

Notice that you ARE this seer. And actually, happy to be so.

5.9.23

It is called life in the real. No rules, just compassion and a bit of awakened interconnection required to join in.

All the while as we over and over keep choosing to no longer “make” all of these collective and totally insane human beliefs in separation, thousands of years deep, so to speak, into ever more increasingly conflicted and conflicting fantasy and their insanely destructive “non-realities.”

An interesting thing is that, once this process sets in deep enough, beliefs can then also become part of the play, because we are no longer actually “believing” them. “Props” we bring in and toss out, as needed, selectively, in service to life and all its myriad expressions, which now includes even our own human selves. We have become part of (partners with) Creation, rather than in self-imposed conflict with it.

Serious beliefs, goofy beliefs, all sorts of beliefs, because we (who really want to fully join in this game) now know none of it is real. Just temporary impressions made on these ever-moving, shifting, changing, appearing and disappearing Waters of Existence.

5.10.23

As very unique expressions of life actually awakening to Herself through these relative forms, we inherit the possibilities, the actualities and the very important responsibilities of relative and self-conscious choice, and, inherent in this inheritance, so to speak, the ability to BELIEVE, and further, because we ARE incarnated into these forms, to actually act out according to our beliefs.

Which means we can also believe we are separate from, and therefore able to actually turn “against,” Universal Life that we also are.

Currently the human race is spiraling ever deeper and deeper down into some darkening and intensifying lies of separation, all because of beliefs that are opposed to Life, Wholeness and Interconnection, our very own Source, and what we also ARE.

So be careful. It is BOTH fun and VERY serious. With us humans being in some rather advanced and very destructive stages of ignoring just how serious all this belief in the illusions of separation actually is.

Consciousness is infinite and eternal. Humans may not be.

Life, consciousness, energy, all the same. And it is consciousness that is speaking now.

So, enjoy your disassociation for as long as it lasts. It definitely has an expiration date. Which I am sure, when you quit clinging to abstract internalized experiences and become honest with yourself, you will realize you already know.

All of this is soooo much greater and more profound than mere bliss.

5.11.23

“The person I think I am” is in constant fear of its true nature. All fear at core is the fear of Love. Love resists nothing, and always reflects what is true. It is that reflection that identities of separation are terrified of, for in it they see they do not exist, and are made solely of the Same Love.

5.18.25

One does not “have” happiness. One IS happy.

Whenever we are not happy there are beliefs in separation we are either partially or totally identified with and lost in.

And don’t confuse happiness with pleasure, thrill, glee, ecstasy, bliss, or any other temporary state that identities of separation, aka ego, often believe is happiness, and often get very, though always only temporarily, lost in.

Happiness is what we always and already are, and have only forgotten.

Waiting not required.

5.27.23

There is an always going deeper understanding you are pointing towards now, for yourself.

Rupert and Bernardo understand a lot of this in some profound ways most people do not. Bernardo mostly through his relationship with science, and Rupert through his relationship with what I’ll call here grand spiritual teachings.

And because they are knowledgeable of each other’s relative perspectives as well, they can also discuss the larger meanings of that natural commonality.

And yet they both are still merely signposts pointing the way. What I will now call here the Real is becoming ever more manifestly aware of Herself through and AS us, and this unfolding is, for each human individual, deeply personal and unique.

And, an even greater amazing beauty that paradox often points to; we are all one whole greater interconnectivity that is also awakening always ever more and more to Itself as well. In other words, awakening is not limited to human minds, bodies or forms. Even as it is so very much inclusive of form, mind and diverse bodies.

In other words, Creation is weaving Herself ever more deeply, vastly, and diversely, together, through this very same journey of awakening you and I are also about, into What we and all Creation also and paradoxically always and already ARE.

Each journey is everyone’s journey, and yet every journey is unique. All sentient existence, not just humans, is awakening with us.

Starting in the late 60’s and on through into the early 80’s I did many different sorts of hallucinogens. Then, it became time to move on from all that. To come down from all those mountaintops, slowly walk back ever deeper into this world, and begin to learn how I am called to awaken THROUGH it.

And then one more time, as it became a third sort of awakening.

Awakening as the world, through the world, free of the world, and in surrender to the world. No longer different from surrender into this Emptiness that ALL is arising within, and we also are.

All the same.

We, all together, are meant to be signposts for each other, as well as for ourselves. No one needs to follow another. Nor can they. But we can and sometimes do walk together, each in our various different ways, and even sometimes become good company for each other, for some various whiles.

In a sense that is what we are all here in form for. To keep each other company. But THIS company includes ALL of life here on Earth, not just humans.

For we are in truth always and forever walking the same One road together. How could it be otherwise, once we realize we are all this Same One?

No matter whether someone knows, or not, Truth remains.

I like to challenge Bernardo and even Rupert sometimes. They are caught rather deeply, in their different ways, in some identifications with their teachings, ideas, stories and concepts. But never not in appreciation for who they are and what they are doing, and, so importantly, making available for others. Their perspectives continue to be hugely encouraging, helpful and inspiring, for many, many people.

6.6.23

In actuality all is qualia, in this way you point. And one could also say in actuality all is relationship. Both expressions pointing towards this same original nature we also are, limitlessly and eternally knowing, discovering, recreating and forgetting itself, through all these ever arising and disappearing qualities and relationships.

6.7.23

There is no outside. All of this is an “inside” job. With fear being merely our unwillingness to turn around and face the One fundamental truth we also are.

Not human effort, it is instead the demise of ALL human effort based in identities of separation, all the while staying present.

Consciousness, awareness, original nature, source, whatever names we use for what cannot be named and is only known by itself, reaches through to itself alone, in and as all of us. Calling us into an ever-brighter awareness of ourselves. But only as much as we become willing to dissolve out of the way.

Giving such moments of grace a fixed name, whether that be “me,” “guides,” other entities, or whatever, is plain foolishness, and only gets in the way.

In other words, there is no need to make it special. Let it be ordinary, because it is, more and more the new normal, in these what are otherwise NOT very ordinary, or normal, collective projections, aka societies, that we humans are all presently and mostly unconsciously participating in.

The problem arises when we believe we “are” our imaginings. “Self and other” for one somewhat fundamental example. Imaginings of separation, from source, self, and other(s).

6.11.23

It is only HERE that conscious choosing becomes aware of itself, to naturally discover that our decision (choice) to propagate (live) the truth is the only thing that will actually burn away the fog of lies, illusion and shame.

Truth is light, lies and illusions are the shadows and condensations (fog) we use to close ourselves off from our very own awareness of this light, in fear of the reflection of our true self that we will see, and how it is only our own beliefs in them that make shadows and illusory condensations seem real, when they are not.

6.11.2

Awareness is not separate or apart from anything. Light, dark, close, far, pain, no pain, or whatever, awareness IS. I have known great pain for extended periods, many times and in many different ways.

Trying to get away from it, or go towards its imagined absence, makes it seem only more. It is your experience now, coming, going, more, less. Day, night, awake, asleep, pain, no pain, awareness is all of it. Eventually everything passes. Even mountains. Become this pain the way a mountain is a mountain.

The opportunity in the midst of physical pain is immense. You cannot distract from it. Especially if you have the fortitude or intention to avoid the drugs. Awareness is NOT about the absence of pain. Discover this!

In other words, use this opportunity. You are awareness, the pain is, and you are still awareness. Neither accepting nor refusing the pain, simply allowing what is. Not even allowing, you ARE what is.

So that whenever the pain passes, you remain, awareness, what is.

6.14.23

I will address one core misunderstanding in your words, for it anchors and contains all the rest of this in the very same illusions, resistance and grasping that you seem to be attempting to dispel, otherwise known as the phenomenal world.

“The sage sees only the screen whether the movie is on or not.”

The sage sees both, confusing herself with neither.

Prior to all words, all imagery, and all efforts, including these words.

6.16.23

To quote a mystic teacher Rupert has often quoted over the last dozen years I’ve known him. AKA Jesus:

“Truly, I say to you, as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to me.”

“You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: Love your neighbor as yourself. The entire law and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments.”

“If anyone says, ‘I love God,’ but hates his brother, he is a liar; for whoever does not love a brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen.”

Jesus also said “Truly, truly, I say to you, before Abraham was, I am.”

In Jesus’s culture and the traditions of those times “I AM” was the name of God. And “Abraham” was the “beginning.”

Or, as it is said God told Moses, “I Am That I Am”

In other words, it was Consciousness, to bring all this into current context, that was speaking through Jesus to others, and speaking through Moses’ experience to Moses.

The four primary paths of Yoga are considered to be Karma Yoga, Bhakti Yoga, Jnana Yoga, and Raja Yoga. It is said that Jesus taught Bhakti Yoga.

We are here in form as potential, to become self-aware beings, by loving ourselves, God, and each other. One of many paths of awakening. And even as all paths eventually weave together, once we become fully committed to any one or more of them.

Rupert knows this. It is why he is teaching. His teachings are in a collective sense his unique manner of loving. It is also his way of having a lot of interesting company on this (non) journey.

But do realize, there are eight billion (seeming other) unique (human) ways of loving (or not), here on just this one little planet we call Earth, at the moment. So to speak.

God, Consciousness, Awareness, Truth, Love, Christ, Vishnu, Krishna, Rama, Tao, Allah, literally ten thousand names, ten thousand times ten thousand names, stories, on and on, for what cannot ever in Truth be named or told or argued, and is only ever truly known by Itself.

Or Herself, as I like to say these days. Saying it this way does not shift what is being referred to of course, but it does shift where we are looking from, in I believe some currently very helpful ways.

6.27.23

It’s a rather slippery slope you seem to be wanting to play upon now. I wonder why?

Whatever the case, I won’t go down it with you, for that is what people caught in their own mazes like to have us do, isn’t it, slide down their slippery slopes with them?

My prior words already make their own sense, this also being true for many others here it seems, without any more help from me. What you are now putting in the way of yourself is for you to discover. If you dare.

Though let me offer a possibly helpful hint, which is that whatever you wish to call this that we are attempting to share here, it is neither about comfort, nor discomfort.

What your words are seeming to indicate, at least to me, is that you have greatly confused your aggressive feelings and impulses with clarity.

And, because it seems to disturb you a bit, or you wouldn’t have brought it up, I’ll add, in order to maybe ease some of your “discomfort,” that I first met Rupert and Ellen, all of us guests at Francis Lucille’s house, I think it was at least 13 years ago now.

And with that said here are a couple more things. I have no interest in following or being followed, and certainly do not need any stories or credentials in order to “prove” myself.

My words and actions are what they are. If something I write matters to you, fine. And if not, then why not just move on? Your triggers are for you to sort out, all on your own.

I’ll also note that I am probably two or even three times your age, and have been following my own unique path in these ways for pretty near my whole life.

For the rest you can simply re-read what I wrote and hear the sincerity, or not. It is your choice. You are actually making your own path, in each moment, with everything you do, think, or presume, all by yourself.

Company in these ways is the gift, or Grace, however you may want to call it. It cannot be commandeered.

~ John Fridinger
Late Fall, 2025
Talent, OR