Possibility extending into possibilities,
Every Moment begetting moments,
Existence a never ending
Movement of swirling energies
Given birth by Stillness.

Out of Nothing, Everything,
Awareness Dancing with itself,
Singing into Creation
Myriad unfolding Ways,
Life in Love with Being.

—

The deer arrives,
Meeting, Presence,
Movement,

The deer departs.
I go with her,
One.

Wild enfolding
Another Wanderer
Back into Existence,

I Am Her deepest
Mysteries, forever
Awakening.

—

Now This, within which
A dream appears,
Forgiveness in every
Moment we Know

Without knowing
anything, eternally
Here, separation was
only a dream.

Through surrender our
shared dream has come Alive,
Awareness in joyful play
with Being, Knowingly.

—

This Knowing is your Heart,
Preciousness, cat in lap.
All One, sipping tea.

The hugeness of God
That She can hold even This,

In One Heart, Alone.

—

What is True
is found in the Dance
of wholeness within Wholeness,
a Joyful Dance that embraces
even the activities of separation
with Awareness and Love.
Neither All nor Nothing.
Part of Greater Wholeness.

—

Neither grabbing on,
nor pushing away,
somewhere between,
there is a crack in reality,
Light shining through,
Here and Now,
Your Face.

—

There is Love
that embraces even this fear,
and I feel it within,
like a seed, newborn.

Reaching into dark depths,
awakening into light,
duality transfigured
into joyful life.

Tender and delicate,
unsure and bold,
a swirl of possibilities,
Goddess unfolding.

—

Realizing, movement,
surrendering ever
deeper into All
that Calls us
Home.

Saying Yes,
offering self to Presence,
nothing to change,
fix, make better,
Already Whole.

Remembering, Forgetting,
stages on this non-journey,
until there is Neither,
Just This, Always Here,
Awakening was a dream.

—

The cats and I,
sending you
our delight,
energy moving,
all over the world
an upwelling,
Life and existence
reforming in new ways,
the old falling away in Love,
Awareness embracing Truth
as Self.

—-

A bridge that reaches
across the Abyss of
God’s Love,
held solid in the core
of two hearts.

A new world is spanned,
myriad hearts joining
together upon
A different Way.

All in God, as God,
forever Not Knowing,
this same Love,
awakening, Awake.

—

What could come of
surrendering in concert,
God playing awesome
music through All,
Beings awakening
into this Non-Journey
Together and Alone,
supporting each other
in Truth, distinct Souls
in Love with God
That We Are.

—

Even in your anger you loved me,
and in the heat of your love was
my own that I could never again
turn away from, that held me Here,
transfixed by a shared need
to become All that we Are,
Called now to truly Love.

We have come into Life, our
passage this opened Way of
God, formed of Joining, Beings
forever discovering Self,
in and through each other.

—

‘Tis like this, exactly, the fullness
of Presence, and the Missing.

Yearning becomes in Surrender
the fruit of Existence, of Life.

This Need that we are,
Always Arising.

~ John Fridinger
On the Road
Fall, 2009

Movement together,
apart, inward, outward,
feeling lonely again,
enough adventure, want
the closeness of subtle
things, slow movements,
still paths, seasons
that teach us circular
ways, quiet expressions,
gesture, energies
that speak of deep
mysteries unrevealed,
eyes that see
ourselves in the other,
the taste and scent of
the qualities of self,
words that open like doors
into the fullness of heart,
simple actions that bring
closeness, touch that knows
beauty in the shapes and
textures of what we are…

—

Could it be that
there are some things
we are reaching for that
is really God reaching
through us, for us? That, in
Awareness, Truth reaches
through what is Here?

This Knowing in a different Way,
from a place that is neither
separate nor attached.
Reaching as a part of
what we are,
in God.

Reach and
Let Go, all at the same time,
one whole,
so to speak…

—

Talking this morning, a lot, your gift to me, a shared discovery
in the midst of Not Knowing, All in its own Way, beautifully
reflected moments arising out of openness, showing up,
small tastes, love given, yourself, Being, in-seeing.

Scared to share some things, how you might hear, and this
morning you gifted me greatly. I am not what you fear, those
echoes of the past, it seems that we Both know that now.

I can speak, an amazing discovery, no one here that wants
to go after you, all that gone, a beautiful child embraced,
close, Joining, This Wondrous Love, Our Self.

Love eternally remains, and a Wanting without expectation, simply
reaching to the Beloved, touch and be touched, hold and be
held in moments that embrace Oneness, a Letting Go that
nourishes Self in the Beloved Other.

—

A Whole Lot
Healing
All OK
Held In Love
My Heart
God

—

Chakras, Mt. Shasta, and the Earth,
Deep Energies Freed,
New Beginnings,

The plane of our Solar System,
The plane of our Galaxy,
Where they Cross,

The Eclipse and The Solstice
And the Root of the Earth
Now Exactly Here.

Beginning days, Fall 2011,
New Possibilities,
In All sorts
of Ways.

No longer merely story,
Acknowledging,
Opening up to All.

—-

May We Know
Great Presence in
These Moments of
Great Transition,
End of Separation,
Not-Knowing,
Held In The
Love of All.

—

Slow in the Ways of a Great Mountain,
Gentle as the Touch of a Butterfly,
In Love with the Friend
That We Are.

Presence Permeating Creation’s Miracle,
Weaving Life’s Endless Songs Into
God Dancing, Precious Being
That We Are.

Slowly and Gently, This Stillness
The Blessed Essence, Each
Delicate Moment
That We Are.

The Seeker of Self is Falling Away,
Allowing One to Remember,
Love that I Am, All
That We Are.

Coming Back into This, Heart of
Hearts, Separation Never
Was, Divine One
That We Are.

—

Letting go,
We become
What always is,
The space in
Which we occur,
Always here,
Not-knowing,
Trust in God
All Just This…

—-

Here now
we are,
surrendering
to what is,
choosing
to let go…

—-

Wonder about the Night,
And the Day Sky,
The Sun always Here,
Source of the One Heart
That we All are…

And Now, this
Knowing, Here
In the One Heart
That we All are…

What is needed
simply Is, out of the
One Heart
That we All are…

—

The Course is opening
more and more, as if into
an ever expanding abyss,
trusting with all my Heart
that It is Love…

You are Here Beloved Self,
Remembering what was
Never lost or forgotten,
This Being, becoming…

—-

This calling out of our deepest needs,
unfolding into the myriad shapes and
expressions of Being, participants of the
Whole, Life yearning for itself in New Ways.

Slow movements and subtle expressions,
Love loving and being loved, embracing
ourselves as we are, in all these amazing,
unravelling, emerging, revealing ways.

Worlds and natural desires joining,
God-Given, holding the All through each
other, a greater World without division,
Our Humanness discovered as The Way.

Life provides for us and nourishes us through
each other, All in Time, back and forth,
rhythms of Possibility, Goddess in Form, no
one to count, only One, Alive, Being, What Is.

Neither mine nor yours, the World, all of
This, Ours, as it is meant to Be,
and Is, Us Realized, Beauty Known,
Knowing Itself, Coming and Going.

Energy ebbs and flows this way and that,
from you to me, from me to you,
Existence Is, Essences Unfolding into
each other, the Wondrousness of it All.

Spaciousness not measured, True
Openness allows all things to Be, this way
and that, receiving in Love what is
given in Love, the Greatest Freedom of All.

These very Places we Find ourselves, Creation,
All just This, our most hidden, mundane and fearful
energies as expressions of Life, God discovering God
in All of Her infinite, myriad and unfolding Ways.

—

( the only true joining is with what has never been apart )

~ John Fridinger
On the Road
Fall, 2011

Fell down a rabbit hole
again, a couple days ago,
mind like a mad hatter, filled
with clashing illusions…

None of the stories real,
however much I believe
they are, which maybe,
at the moment, I don’t…

Always a familiar rabbit
hole, the same foolish
beliefs, every time I begin,
once again, to notice…

—

Never without this reaching,
so many layers of energy, fear,
despair, dissolving into trust…

Awareness, in the presence
of love, showing the way,
embracing sadness into itself…

Every moment absorbed by the
next, neither past nor future, just
This, ever changing, ordinary, now…

Perhaps I will transplant some
tomatoes later today, read a book,
or listen to the birds sing…

—

I trust,
and am given
to God in greater
and greater ways.

Every day is growth,
this surrender into being,
itself also surrendered,
or so it seems.

Some ways it is unfolding
are still very scary,
lots of confusion
and pain,

But sometimes, in these
ways that surrender
grows, there is
joy, peace, freedom.

—

Talking this morning, then reading
the poetry I sent you yesterday.
Feeling in your words now a
mingling of essences, Here,
this Heart of shared hearts,
Ocean without limits.

We are the Shores of the Infinite,
discovering All Other as ourselves,
this shared Presence of One Being.

Here we meet, in Recognition,
all of this, together, still bodies, so
uniquely responsive, God to God.

I Am, becoming with another, deeply
feeling, this poetry my song to You,
and to you dearly beloved, God’s
expression, the gift of Her Self
emerging into form, This World that
calls us into What we have always been…

—

She Knows Her own love in
another, and through her love
She is found, yet also myself, this
greater Self that is All of Us,
infinite discovery, the Whole
that we Are, Always, Becoming.

—-

Feeling scared and alone
this morning, you could tell.

Is all this still story, or is it
simple human expression,
truth, movement, life?

Can’t say, don’t know, anything.

—

Feeling life, so much, colors,
scent, music, touch, the subtle
realms. All is Essence, energies,
Discovery, the Ways that Life
upwells through Body, Heart,
God Expressed. Here I Am.

—

Feeling people, Love, loving,
missing community, home,
drinking tea with the Beloved,
the liquid warmth and subtleties
of You suffusing into This that
I Am, the One that We Are.

—

Feeling God Yearning for God through
All, Unfolding out of the mysteries
of Her Heart, into Another,
Revealing in the myriad Ways
of Existence, our Transformation
into Stillness and Love,
Not Knowing, Becoming.

—

With Lack Or
Without Lack,
I Miss,
I Feel,
I Love,
I Offer,
All to God,
I Am,
You

—

This calling out of our deepest needs, like
handkerchiefs unfolded from our pockets into
their own shapes and expressions of Being as
part of the Whole, Life yearning for itself in New Ways.

No urgency, slow movements and subtle expressions,
feelings that want to love and be loved, embracing
ourselves as we are, in all these amazing,
unravelling, emerging and ever revealing ways.

The joining of Worlds with natural desires, truly
God-Given, a holding of ourselves and each
other, a greater World without division or concern,
our very Humanness discovered as The Way.

Life provides for us and nourishes us through
each other, All in Time, back and forth, the
rhythms of Possibility, Goddess in Form, no one
to count, only One, Alive, Being, What Is.

There is no longer a mine and a yours, there is
only all of This that is Us, the World as it was
always meant to Be, and Is, All of Us Realized,
Beauty Known, Knowing Itself, the Coming and
the Going, eternal Self embracing infinite Emptiness.

Energy ebbs and flows, this way and that, sometimes
from you to me, sometimes from me to you,
Existence as it Wants to Be, Essences Unfolding
into and out each other, the Wondrousness of it All.

Real Time a Spaciousness not measured, a True
Openness that allows all things to Be, forever this way
and that, receiving from the other in Love what is
given in Love, this is the Greatest Freedom of All, perhaps.

These very Places we Find ourselves are parts of Creation
as it Wants to Be, All just This, our most hidden, mundane and
fearful energies now become expressions of Life, God discovering
God In Creation, in All of Her infinite, myriad and unfolding Ways.

~ John Fridinger
On the Road
Summer, 2011

Waiting…
for someone,
something,
myself,
this painful core,
to burst forth,
set me free,
and reveal a direction
that moves us
along.

Waiting…
for life to reveal
a known purpose,
or perhaps a goal
that serves my soul;
or a work that can
turn all needs into
an offering of myself.

Waiting…
to reveal myself,
and create in the world around me
this huge open space that is my heart
so I may plant my own existence
into that emptiness
like ten thousand seeds bursting
forth from the void.

Waiting…
for something that moves me as
powerfully as I feel,
a swell whose energy can
expand my heart with a
momentum to fill all
my life.

Waiting…
for a yearning so deep,
and someone
I can share it with,
this lonely
aching
emptiness
at the core of my being.

Waiting…
to join together
with myself
all these things
I am
becoming.

Waiting…
for rage to die,
and a hope
to be born here
in my breast
that can endure
all these seething desires
that burn in my belly.

Waiting…
for a fire that will
forge into reality
the emptying of all
that my heart
calls to be freed from,
these fragments and desolations
of what has passed.

Waiting…
for the ground to rise up,
embrace my feet
and entwine my toes,
with the roots of my ancestors,
and show me who I am,
finally, as I raise my head
above this pounding breast
that grips my heart so tightly
with the anguish and pain of
all I have dared to understand.

Waiting…
for something to dissolve,
flow outward and away,
blending my life into the world,
as I become a part of all that I am,
able now to create life anew, out of all
that once struggled to burst free
of what I have for so long
clung to.

~ John Fridinger
Santa Cruz, CA
Spring, 1994

A seemingly perennial urge
to run into a woman,
yet trusting, somehow
she won’t let me.

Believing in her spirit, and her
courage to be free, I once again
become this lone heart bursting forth,
like a vast tree leafing into spring.

Still present is an ancient fear,
of a Way she won’t allow us to know,
as together we become untethered
to images made of our differing pasts.

Always this not knowing, an innocence
I am called to come to terms with,
accept, here, in this spaciousness we are
all about, within each of us, for the other.

A living, tangible, embodied
force, this life we are here to
nourish in and with a world we share,
honoring what we Are, together.

Can we discover how
to set ourselves free without
forgetting what already binds
us together with all life, as One?

Vulnerability is daring to
really believe in an intimacy
that can only find itself through
Two, in One seamless way.

To come to fruition through
a rooting of two journeys into one
whole life, this heart of our
hearts, all that we are, together.

The power of her strength
now freed into our shared
world is what I dare to trust,
with everything that I am.

A mystery we find together
only in the communion of a
shared and sharing life
surrendered into love.

~ John Fridinger
Santa Cruz, CA
Spring, 1985

Woman

I am someone who
Loves very strongly,
very fully, indeed.

Which one of you
will open so widely,
so deeply,
as this?

Woman, forget the past,
that was your fear.

Now is what is real.

In the old ways
we were always
dying for her love,
living alone for his.

Something may have
been born into eternity
out of such a union,
But that way is past,
and a new way
must be found.

So many journeys, through
so many mistakes, and
so many forms,
we have been deeply,
powerfully,
and passionately
in love.

Somewhere in
the midst of
this stillness we are,
there is that which
will  once again
breath us
more deeply
into one, rekindle
all the joy, passion
and intimacy
we have known,
over and over,
so many lifetimes.

And when we
are finally ready,
love will also teach
us how to nurture,
sustain,
and remember.

She forgot
who we were
when we began
this journey of
One, and the call we
have come back
together through,
so many times, and
now once again,
in this lifetime
to answer.

The one eternal
task all who
are here in form
are truly about,
to forge a
shared vessel
large enough
and strong enough
to contain and express
the vastness, light,
heat and power
of One
real, true,
Love.

~ John Fridinger
Santa Cruz, CA
Summer, 1993